Where he describes his shell-shocked ie traumatized PTSD state after World War I
Postwar
The home of Robert Graves in DeiĆ , Majorca
Immediately after the war, Graves had a wife,
Nancy Nicholson, and a growing family but was financially insecure and weakened physically and mentally:
Very thin, very nervous and with about four years' loss of sleep to
make up, I was waiting until I got well enough to go to Oxford on the
Government educational grant. I knew that it would be years before I
could face anything but a quiet country life. My disabilities were many:
I could not use a telephone, I felt sick every time I travelled by
train, and to see more than two new people in a single day prevented me
from sleeping. I felt ashamed of myself as a drag on Nancy, but had
sworn on the very day of my demobilization never to be under anyone's
orders for the rest of my life. Somehow I must live by writing.[21]